Posts Tagged ‘pain’

So, I know that it seems I have abandoned my blog, and subsequently all of you.  I promise that is not what happened.  I have been in a lot of pain lately, everything from just feeling off (like my body was being taken over), to actual, physical pain.  It seems like it starts in my muscles, and especially my joints (wrists, knees, and ankles mostly), then I would swear that my bones hurt.  The pain comes and goes, and there are a lot of times where I am completely pain-free, but there are just as many times that I will be in the middle of a thought and feel like I was run over by a Mack truck all of a sudden.  And lately, nearly every time after I eat, I feel like my stomach is trying to run away.  Such a fun reaction to, well everything.  😀  We’re trying to get it all figured out, the doc and me, but in the meantime, I’m left to grit my teeth and breathe through it.  I am extremely lucky that I have great friends who understand and are there for me, even though I know at times that I am probably more of a buzz-kill/burden than a fun person to hang with, but they never complain.

As for you, my lovelies, stick with me and I promise that we will continue this journey together, even if it is at a snail’s pace. 😉

Here’s to happy times, good friends, and maybe just maybe, a blissful, calm day.


I was diagnosed at age 16 with bipolar disorder.  I don’t know about you, but what teenager isn’t bipolar?  Fucking doctors, I swear.  Sure, I have my ups and downs, but who doesn’t?  That has all changed in the last few months.  I am starting to believe that I might actually be bipolar.  If not that, then at least depressed.

The last week has been the worst in my life.  I admitted to my best friend that I was in love with him, to a very resounding, “but I like us the way we are.”  *Ouch* talk about not being the response you’re looking for.  Add to the fact that we’re having a baby together and he insists it’s just hormones, and I am one confused, hurt, and desperate person.